tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-60853775830743874962024-03-13T16:31:15.231+00:00Duchess of the ShireAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15781870109307692293noreply@blogger.comBlogger323125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6085377583074387496.post-62884598943441205352016-06-10T13:44:00.000+01:002016-06-10T13:44:34.241+01:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<i>A question that I always ask myself is where do my intentions come from? Are they purely selfish, or am I overly emotional, unable to separate what I desire from what is right and true? Or am I the result of a society that demands everything and gives nothing, therefore I cannot be held responsible for my lack of empathy? Or am I a combination of all of these things, and so much more, that I haven't yet had the opportunity to consider? </i><br />
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<i>I tend to have my most existential questions late at night, when I'm on my own. It's not exactly late at the moment, but I have spent more and more time on my own. I have craved my own company and damned those who have got in my way. There are a select few that I allow to be in my presence, but the moment their demands become too expectant I tend to scurry back into my hermit-like ways. I'm not sure where this has come from, or if it has been a long time coming, or actually this is what I'm truly like, as I was hiding behind a sociable facade?</i><br />
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<i>I have all of the questions and not a single one of the answers. </i><br />
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<i>Since I am now into the second week of June, with only a fortnight left in the Far East, life is going at a tumultuous speed, and I've needed to take myself off to collect my thoughts before the long journey back to the Shire. <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.hk/2016/05/the-time-between-written-posts-passes.html">Of course, I have the delightful pleasure of my Irish Ladies of Corcagh who arrive imminently, to look forward to, and their presence is greatly anticipated.</a> But before they arrive, I have chosen myself as my only companion. That is, until <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.hk/2016/04/i-ended-my-previous-post-with-thanks-to.html">the dark-eyed musician</a> finishes entertaining the masses and I can have him to myself. I need some sort of consistency in my life at the moment, and he has the voice the purrs my name, in a way that only he can. </i><br />
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<i>Does that make it fair on the other people I have in my life. No. But, since when is life fair? And I have made no promises to break. Rather I have kept myself to myself, allowing my thoughts to cloud my sensibilities, and gone with what I believe are my truest of emotions. I don't know any more. I have been shut down for so long after the Duke of Albany, that I don't know what it is to feel and truly give myself to someone, and I am not yet ready to do that - thought I am finally allowing the thought to enter my mind for the first time in a year.</i><br />
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<i>There was a part of me that thought <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2016/05/the-time-between-written-posts-passes.html">my last post would be just that, my last</a>. But then there comes a day or a night where the words flow, and I can't stop myself from pouring out all that I feel, despite being unable to say the words out loud. </i><br />
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<i>And then someone you care about touches you and all the doubts, the worries, the questions, fall by the wayside, and all that matters is that moment in time. A touch that makes your entire body burn with desire, love, lust, a craving that you didn't realise you had, and aren't entirely sure that you want to satisfy. Or sometimes, it isn't even a touch - a tender look that speaks volumes. It conveys all the emotions that you have yet to admit, and aren't brave enough to utter into the hair that caresses your lips as you silently beg for more. </i><br />
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<i>For all that I feel, tiredness is something that I cannot ignore. My eyelids flutter against my cheeks, a daily struggle as I try to survive on a few hours sleep a night. It turns out age doesn't agree with me, and I need at least my eight hours to stay both productive and kind. The kindness leaves first once I'm under my eight hours. The productivity wanes under five hours.</i><br />
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<i>How could I be bored when there is still so much to explore? And I will admit that the travelling is something I long for when I have duties that keep me grounded for weeks at a time. And of course, there are similar opportunities back in Europe's beautiful green and pleasant land, but I want to see the world and be at home. How can I have everything that I want? Or is that life's great joke? We shall always want it all, but it is literally, metaphorically and physically impossible. </i><br />
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<i>Well, I've always been one to say 'never say never'... Whatever will be, will be, and all that, so I shall enjoy the journey. </i><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15781870109307692293noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6085377583074387496.post-84503144743510462352016-05-16T13:49:00.000+01:002016-05-16T23:15:21.019+01:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<i>The time between written posts passes too quickly and there are days when I forget that I have a duty to myself to record what it is that I do, where I go and how I feel. I wonder how long it'll be before this hobby of mine dwindles to a halt and it too becomes a fleeting memory, for I have no greater commitment in my life than the few words I share on these pages and the colours that I allow to drip on to a blank canvas. </i><br />
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<i>Though life is not as bleak as I portray it to be. </i><br />
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<i>Actually I am ever so fortunate. Another year older if not wiser, and though the frivolities were many and the permanent marks almost as damming as in previous year, I do feel more content. There are moments of dissatisfaction, but in general, I cannot believe my good fortune and I hope I show my appreciation to the Goddess. </i><br />
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<i>I only have a few more weeks in the Far East before returning to the Shire for the summer. Again I shall be at the Convent, (I cannot remember a time where the summer and the Convent weren't intermingled), and I shall have my darling Irish Lady by my side. I cannot wait to cavort in my overly-familiar stomping ground with my blue-eyed darling. She is almost as adventurous as I am in some aspects, and far exceeds me in others!</i><br />
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<i>It will be delightful to catch up with my wonderful Ladies of the Shire and I cannot wait to watch my darling Armiger walk down the aisle. There are so many people to see and so many people that I am looking forward to spending some time with, if only for a few long summer evenings.</i><br />
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<i><a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2016/04/i-ended-my-previous-post-with-thanks-to.html">Though it cannot be said that I am not enjoying my time here in the Orient</a>. I am off on some more travels in a few days, accompanying a truly captivating creature who I daren't write any more about at present. The Scottish Earl is still sojourning in the Far East for a while longer, which makes for interesting dinner conversation. And the musician, with his deep, soul-searching eyes... He is more than a little difficult to comprehend. Indeed, there is all manner of confusion in my head and heart and I know that I am the one who is going to end up burned, but truly I don't know how to do anything other than what I'm doing... I shall just have to wait and see how I manage to cope with the path I have forced myself down.</i><br />
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<i>My Mother joined me here in the Far East a few days ago, and though her journey was tumultuous, she has taken to the Far East like a duck to water. I forget that she has travelled as much as I have in her younger days, and though this is her first time to my Eastern city, she is more interested in the people I know than the places I have been. So we have dallied with friends, wandered the mountainside, delighted <a href="http://www.thehouseofdancingwater.com/">at the spectacle of dancing water </a>that has astonished so many visitors to my Easter home. </i><i>I am glad that she is enjoying herself and I hope she gets just as much enjoyment out of her own travels to come. </i><br />
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<i>Before Mother arrived I did have one day worth writing home about. It was a Wednesday and due to a wonderful tradition, everyone was in fiesta mode as we were celebrating the King of Festivals. I spent the morning in a state of undress with an artist of note - <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.cz/2013/12/to-accept-offer-of-having-painting.html">nothing like the portrait of Venus the Duke of Albany had commissioned for me all those years ago</a> - but rather something much deeper and darker, and I have to admit it took me a fair while to get comfortable with my body being scrutinised in such a way. </i><br />
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<i>That afternoon I jaunted over the waters to a larger city to spend time with the Scottish Earl who surprised me with a visit. I couldn't not see him while he was in town, and there are rumours that he may be here for a little longer than expected. But of course it should have been scandalous to jump from one situation to another, yet it looks like I am used to these various trysts. </i><br />
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<i>The final chapter of the day was a complete surprise, even for me. I had left my painting class after my delicious dinner with the Scottish Earl and was wandering the streets of this most glorious city, when I heard the ever-so-familiar notes of a ballad from a musician I hadn't thought of in months. I couldn't help but be drawn to the sound. </i><br />
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<i><a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.cz/2015/11/normally-if-i-take-hiatus-from-my.html">I didn't expect to see the same deep, dark eyes staring back at me from an equally shocked face from my travels in Indochina many months before</a>. The musician continued to play, ever the professional, but the second he had a moment to spare, there we were laughing and talking about our fond memories from before Christmas. He was never someone I wrote of as an individual, always too <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.cz/2015/10/another-week-has-passed-and-i-feel-even.html">wrapped up in the man who made me see myself</a>, but now, now that I know what I am... I still can say nothing more. Not until I see him again.</i><br />
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There is nothing I can say or do to stop myself from travelling, and honestly I
can't think why I wouldn't spend the rest of my life discovering new cities,
cultures and ways of life that I wouldn't be able to imagine had I stayed
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dallied with all that the country had to offer - and I cannot stress enough the
beauty of a country so little effected by the trappings of the modern world. It
was truly a glorious place to visit and if I had any disappointments, at
all, it is that I didn’t get to spend more than a few days experiencing
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future, return to Indochina and give more of my time to a place that has opened
my eyes to the truly important things in life.</i></span><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif; font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-size: 13.5pt;">This journey was not one of self-discovery. Siam taught me that I
am running very low on patience and my tolerance for other people is not where it
should be… Seemingly however, <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2016/03/what-have-i-learnt-since-my-last-post.html">my creative ambitions are soaring,</a> </span><span style="font-size: 13.5pt;">so I need to
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else seems to give me the same satisfaction, though there are individuals that
I have become close to, and they in turn are demanding more of my attention and
are only too willing to smother me with their affections. Please do not take
the term ‘smother’ in my usual negative connotations, but rather imagine that
someone is placing no more than a chaste kiss on my cheek, and I am
overreacting. It is another of my flaws that I intend to work on, at some
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offer. My Mother is going to join me at the end of this week and together we
shall roam the streets of my home. I shall share my memories of this place that
I have spent so little time, but have already created snippets of my life that
I hope to never forget. It will be exciting to have someone from my past visit
me in this new and exotic place. I remember how wide-eyed and in-awe I was when
I arrived, but now I stroll past the palaces and gigantic buildings without a
second thought. It will be wonderful to see my own town through the eyes of a
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Please Lord, I am the happiest I can remember, let nothing take this feeling
away. Help me always be grateful for what I have, because there is nothing else
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<i>I have just journeyed back from the tropical delights of the Kingdom of Siam, and am suffering from a a serious case of withdrawal. I travelled on my own, learning to love myself once again, and indeed discovering that my normally rather cold and calculated demeanour, melted away under the blazing sun and I am ready to try and care about other people. </i><br />
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<i>Of course I have always cared about my friends and my family, that goes without question, but my apprehension is more towards opening up to other people, allowing them to get to know me a little more intimately, rather than accepting me for the more brusque and brash personality that I am known for. It's a wonderous feeling to be so alone in another country where I do not know the traditions, culture or the language. It is truly eye-opening to discover how much I do not know about the world. It is humbling to be accepted by strangers with a wide smile and kind offer of hospitality. </i><br />
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<i>There were sights I will never forget: fish the size of my body leaping out of the water, flying towards large pieces of bread thrown from bridges and decks on the shore; lizards lazing in the sun on low-hanging trees, their scaly tails taut against the branches in the wind; palaces of gold and silver, diamonds glistening at every turn; statues towering over the throngs of people that crowded around them in search of some good fortune.</i><br />
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<i>I have so much love and respect for the Kingdom of Siam, it was stunningly beautiful in parts - the river, the palaces and temples; the places of worship - both spiritual and material - yet they were contrasting in a painfully obvious, yet ignored way, with the squalor of wooden huts and corrugated metal houses that were hidden in plain sight, overshadowed by the grandeur of the architecture. It was an enlightening place to visit, and I know that the three days I had there weren't enough to do the city justice. I'm sure I shall find it in me to travel there again at some point in the future. </i><br />
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<i>The monks were something to behold, their robes of orange clashing brilliantly with the hue of the city, but more than that, they held themselves with such a poise that they were revered from across the street. Furtive glances were kept low out of respect and yet the monks had a look of serenity upon each of their faces. I was entranced by their very presence, even more so when I saw them out of context, beside the markets and peddlars rather than contemplating life beneath a fresco of their beloved Buddha. I still have so much to learn.</i><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15781870109307692293noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6085377583074387496.post-53331754855495233342016-03-19T00:04:00.000+00:002016-04-19T23:19:46.816+01:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<i>Apparently it is <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2016/03/what-have-i-learnt-since-my-last-post.html">unfair to equate love with other feelings</a>. Love lives in an ivory tower and calls out for those who are courageous enough to try and search for it, whereas I expect love and I to accidentally bump into each other, realising that we've been living in the same ivory tower all along. </i><br />
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<i>I am not bitter, nor hopeful. I am just enjoying being me. I want no one in my life who needs more than a friendship right now, and sometimes I'm not even sure I have a friendship to offer. It is much more difficult maintaining friendships with people you haven't known for decades. My Shire Ladies take no offence from weeks without a word, nor do I expect to be filled in with all their scandals until they are ready to tell that story. In this Oriental bubble that I now live, my friends are few, but we see so much of each other that it becomes instantly recognisable if one of us opts out, or chooses to spend time with anyone else, or even on our own. </i><br />
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<i>Why do we feel the need 'to love and be loved in return'? Does it give us a sense of purpose? Does it make us feel like we belong? I cannot believe that love is the only reason for our existence, nor that life is without meaning if we don't have love. Not that love is a bad thing, but from what I've experienced, it does blinker you to thinking solely about one other person, and forgetting who you are in the process. </i><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15781870109307692293noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6085377583074387496.post-5760125972605253122016-03-06T03:01:00.000+00:002016-03-06T03:32:27.067+00:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<i>What have I learnt <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2016/02/the-end-of-another-month-is-nigh-and.html">since my last post</a>? If anything (which I sincerely doubt) I have discovered that practice truly does make a difference, and my sketches have improved immeasurably since the beginning of the year. It is a pleasant feeling knowing that pushing yourself to do something every day does eventually pay off. </i><br />
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<i>If only I could be as dedicated with my writing, <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2013/11/how-can-i-describe-weekend-ive-had-to.html">like I was in Bohemia</a>, but it turns out I have to make choices between my arts, my friends, my work and myself. And truly I have been suffering for I have lost who I am, and maybe that's because I haven't been doing my writing? Questions are all I have, attempts to see what works is all I can do, and only from there can I adapt and develop to this being that I believe, nay, that I know I am. </i><br />
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<i>I know that I need to make more time for myself, to experience things that I enjoy, for it is all too easy to hide away in my ivory tower, drawing, writing, painting, with no thought to the outside world. But when I hear tales of my wonderful Ladies of the Shire, cavorting in the snow back at home, I not only envy their freedom, but wish I had the opportunity for similar experiences here. </i><br />
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<i>I miss my friends. Of course I have wonderful acquaintances here and few close enough to hold to the bosom of my heart. Nevertheless, it is not quite the same as having your friends from childhood laugh, reminisce and gossip with a furore that I'm sure only we know how. I don't think I have missed my Marquessa and Baroness, Armiger and Court Jester as much as this <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2011/11/evening-wanders-seem-to-have-taken-over.html">since I lived in the Antipodes and had yet to meet anyone outside of my family. </a></i><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15781870109307692293noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6085377583074387496.post-47306985586993987352016-02-25T09:45:00.000+00:002016-02-25T09:45:17.883+00:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">The end of another month is nigh and already I am closer to the spring, when the flowers break through the frosty soil and stretch towards the warm glow of the sun. Then I have to look forward to the summer months back in my homeland... <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.com/2015/06/so-much-has-happened-since-i-last-found.html">Last year still feels like a dream</a>, yet the summer is already approaching at a speed I'd forgotten. It's a wondrous prospect to go <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.com/search/label/convent">back to the Convent</a>, doing something that I love with the friends and family that I don't get to see often enough, but it's astonishing when I think about all that has occurred since I arrived in the Far East. </span></i><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Love and loss... Well, more like love and lessons learned, something that I realise I am still in the midst of, despite my loud affirmations that I already know everything. Life and how to react and respond to other people... It seems this is not something I excel at. I love to socialise, to be the centre of attention, and I crave acceptance from others, even if I am not as interested in giving them anything more than my judgement. I am harsh, overly-critical and not as affected by the idea of self-improvement as I should be.</span></i><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Yet there is another side to me that I have been cultivating out here in the Far East, one that I haven't had the pleasure of since my time in Bohemia. I write, I draw, I paint. Yes this entry is dripping in upright, self-indulgent 'I', but I can't get myself out of my head. My mind is focused only on my emotions, my feelings, my opinions, my choices and decisions. Though I know I need to be aware of how these actions effect other people. </span></i><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">I believe I know what the problem is... I am my own worst enemy. I don't look to fix myself, because that would be admitting there was a problem in the first place, and that is something I cannot bring myself to do. That is my biggest lesson, and there is more to learn that what I have discovered so far.</span></i><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;">Love... I flit, I flee, I fly. It's an intangible emotion that cannot carry any weight, though people base their entire life decisions on a feeling. I too am one of those people, yet I know I am too scared to completely let go like I have done in the past. If I cannot be my scared, contradictory, paradoxical self, then who am I? What am I supposed to be?</span></i><br />
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<i><a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.com/search/label/Valentine%27s%20Day">Another year and another Valentine's Day</a>. This time however, though I am somewhere in the midst of something that is remarkably like love, I cannot dwell on the feelings that I have, nor do I really want to. </i><br />
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<i>The Far East cannot be defined by one culture, everywhere I travel there are snippets of differences that cannot be explained. No one tries to understand what it is that instigates these subtle changes, and it fascinates me to know that there are more places to visit that have no similarities. </i><br />
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<i>To be overtly pensive about the fickle friend that is 'Time' can haunt thoughts at every moment, but to get nostalgic and sentimental about life and the choices that we make or the ones that are thrust upon us... I believe that is less self-indulgent and more necessary so that we can allow some self-awareness to simmer near the surface of our facades that we have spent so long cultivating. </i><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15781870109307692293noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6085377583074387496.post-27583559783803377502016-01-21T09:40:00.000+00:002016-01-21T09:40:19.791+00:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<i><a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.com/2016/01/as-much-of-clich-e-it-is-to-state-new.html">My last post was rather nostalgic, and overtly selfish</a></i><i>- for the new year I shall focus only on that which makes me happy. Because obviously it is only MY happiness that matters. </i><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15781870109307692293noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6085377583074387496.post-23230590297092128912016-01-04T10:17:00.000+00:002016-01-09T23:18:33.429+00:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<i>I close my eyes for what seems like a few minutes only to open them and discover I am once again staring a new year in the face, having little to no time to say goodbye to the year that was. I suppose I should fill in all that has happened during my adventures down under, all sorts of rumours have been flying as I haven't had the time, nay, the strength, to put the rumours to bed. But lying here in the sweltering morning sun on the last day of the year I feel I ought to give an explanation of sorts.</i><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15781870109307692293noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6085377583074387496.post-53004522336645195142015-12-30T20:46:00.000+00:002015-12-30T20:46:50.452+00:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<i>Have a guess as to where I am in the world...? I have allowed myself to let go of my many responsibilities and travel even further away from my home and the Far East in order to frolic in the waves of respite and relaxation. It has been months since I last had a prolonged period of time to myself, experiencing the world through my unadulterated eyes, and discovering a new land.</i><br />
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<i>Normally if I take a hiatus from my writing it is because I have found a new love interest or an old flame is disintegrating before my very eyes. On this occasion however, there are so many love interests that I haven't been able to keep up and it is I, who has imploded. The downward spiral of self-destruction is not a new phase in my life, nor one that I intend to give much weight, but rather it has reminded me to take some time for myself.</i><br />
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<i>If there were any more interesting news to report then I would have written all the sooner, but it seems I have become very focused on my work ~ concentrating on building up those around me, imparting knowledge to young children and perfecting my pencil drawing. Spending time with people is exhausting, especially young children who ted to unintentionally drain one of their own energy. I cannot remember the last time I sat by myself, with my thoughts being completely my own... No interruptions, no whispers of discontent, nothing to distract me from just being.</i><br />
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<i>When the Ruhe River monster appears he finds the village abandoned and deserted, though he eventually discovers the people hiding atop the mounting. Scrambling towards them, the monster is determined to maim and kill, but the smell of the cornel leaves and chrysanthemum wine weakens hi, changing the colour of his skin and making him easier to kill. </i><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15781870109307692293noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6085377583074387496.post-91208975335073489732015-10-17T01:58:00.001+01:002015-10-17T01:58:58.486+01:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<i>Spending days languishing in self-pity and wallowing in gloom because of a sniffle or three, does not a happy Duchess make. I have battled with my body and am in the process of forcing myself to enjoy the autumnal air, despite the cough. </i><br />
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<i>The Scottish Marquessa and I have turned the Far East into our very own playground. We dally in all sorts of circles, though of late we have frequented the music scene ~ <a href="http://www.icm.gov.mo/fimm/29/en/?eventID=2359">a cello concerto that I heard just last night </a>moved me to tears. My only wish was that I'd had the opportunity to share that moment with <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2015/10/another-week-has-passed-and-i-feel-even.html">the gentleman I mentioned in my last musings.</a> However, it seems that the dreaded influenza has spread, affecting his health ~ though I may or may not have had something to do with it.</i><br />
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<i>Regardless, the music of late has been phenomenal and truly inspiring. I have somehow managed to find my voice again, allowing the words to flow through me, all the while cultivating an additional art form as I endeavour to perfect my pencil work. (I cannot admit that my muse has been discovered in the man who has helped me to open my eyes and look at myself... That would be far too saccharine for me).</i><br />
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<i>I am happiest when I am creating. That may be a solitary past time, but my inspiration comes from the exciting moments that I share with both friends and lovers. For example, I would not be where I am, writing in the comfort of my own bed, if it hadn't been for the longest week where I have been pulled in every direction, suffering with maladies (none of which are self-inflicted!).</i><br />
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<i>The ramblings have begun so I ought to stop writing round about now... But my fingers continue to tap away, my hand unable to control itself as the words continue to pour out of me. Nonsense, it seems, shall be the theme of the day.</i><br />
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<i>I suppose I should mention that the <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2015/09/just-few-hours-shy-of-month-have-i.html">Duke of Albany is swimming in dangerously close circles</a>... It is of very little interest to me, but I have no doubt our paths will unintentionally cross at some point. </i><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15781870109307692293noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6085377583074387496.post-28626634094567230472015-10-01T09:29:00.000+01:002015-10-09T03:39:39.677+01:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<i>Another week has passed and I feel even more at home in this foreign country. The sun is low as I write and the moon has a strange glow to it, almost as if I am seeing it for the first time. </i><br />
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<i>I feel I can at last write about what it is in my heart, and <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.com/p/suitors.html">I'm not going to be blase about my previous relationships </a>- for they were meaningful - nor am I going to witter on about a new found love.</i><br />
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<i>I am content with myself, because I am seeing myself for the first time. I have always been aware of my actions and I know how I look to most people, but to the new man in my life, he has opened my eyes, pointing out my effervescent facade within an instant and pulling and eking out the parts of me that I tend to hide. </i><br />
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<i>We joke that we knew each other in a past life, kindred spirits who were meant to find one another again. It is not such a love that will blossom and bloom, but rather it is a passion that inspires and listens, to help one another grow in ourselves, that will inevitably fall apart. He has experienced so much more of the world that only decades of life can teach, and I am still so young, so naive, despite my worldly claims.</i><br />
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<i>He panders to my moods and whimsies, not out of politeness, but because he sees me hiding behind my brash exterior. He isn't afraid to call me out on my ever so slightly spoilt nature, and we are both confident enough to discuss our foibles. It's a little unnerving, only having known him for a little over a month that I am so transparent. I long to find out more about him, but he is still a little wary of me. Again, this was an insightful comment, as I never considered myself to be untrustworthy...</i><br />
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<i>He is my looking glass, helping me to see what it is in me that he so loves. </i><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15781870109307692293noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6085377583074387496.post-76599452891654246542015-09-20T08:57:00.002+01:002015-09-20T08:57:53.870+01:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<i>Just a few hours shy of a month have I spent in the Orient, and though the first few days were a struggle as I acclimatised to the weather, the food, and the culture, I now feel incredibly comfortable here, despite being so far away from home. </i><br />
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<i>If home is supposed to be where your heart is, then I suppose I am always at home, because I love my life and am constantly overwhelmed by the gratitude that fills my heart as I realise how fortunate I am to have these experiences and to share them with the most wonderful of friends. </i><br />
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<i>Being tall and blonde may have its advantages, but it does mean that it is rather difficult to be inconspicuous, and my personality too, seems to have its drawbacks here in the Far East; this is a place where it is more favourable to be discrete and distinguished instead of ostentatious and gregarious. And as my past has shown, I do rather enjoy being the centre of attention. </i><br />
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<i>I still have much to learn, and with every day my confidence grows. </i><br />
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<i>There have been rumours that the Duke of Albany has also travelled East, and though we are on pleasant terms, I do not know if I am quite ready to see him on this side of the world. Especially when there are the most delectable men and women on this side of the world who think nothing of my caresses and knowing looks, but rather encourage my more licentious behaviour.</i><br />
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<i>It's another country that I am letting crawl its way into my heart and I willingly call it home. </i><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15781870109307692293noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6085377583074387496.post-25570794160857238092015-09-05T15:31:00.000+01:002015-09-05T15:31:41.458+01:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<i>There are no words to describe the view that lies before me. It is a landscape so foreign to me that I feel an alien in a country I have chosen to adopt me for the foreseeable future. Despite my yearning for adventure, I truly feel out of my depth in a world so vastly different from my own, but I'm learning. </i><br />
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<i>There are strange sights, smells and sounds every moment of every day; it is a sensory overload and I constantly feel overwhelmed by the newness of it all.</i><br />
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<i>But I love it. </i><br />
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<i>I cannot explain the love I have for my life, and how grateful I am for this opportunity ~ the Far East is a delicate flower waiting to unfurl, with a hubbub of life at it's centre that is almost impossible to penetrate. </i><br />
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<i>The words that spring to mind are gaudy, ostentatious, luxurious, unbelievable, eccentric and foreign. Even my time in the City of a Hundred Spires or the Antipodes didn't prepare me for the onslaught of strangeness that the Orient has to offer. It is truly like nowhere else in the world, and I cannot express my love for this experience enough, though I have only been here a fortnight.</i><br />
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<i>To be so far away from home and so joyously uncomfortable is a sensation I would highly recommend ~ travelling and learning to love somewhere new is an incomparable lesson that we should all be so lucky to learn. </i><br />
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<i>Travel darlings, travel. </i><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15781870109307692293noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6085377583074387496.post-4039688385028652132015-08-19T22:02:00.000+01:002015-08-19T22:02:36.043+01:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<i>When life is overly frenetic to the extent that I cannot find a quiet five minutes to write, please know that change is afoot and my situation is more than likely out of my hands. </i><div>
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<i>So much time has passed that I am <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2015/07/where-do-i-begin-story-of-my-life-has.html">no longer taking residence in Brighthelmstone,</a> but rather am enjoying the comfort of my own bed in the Shire for one night more... <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2015/04/one-would-think-itd-be-possible-to.html">The Far East beckoned</a> and tomorrow I shall begin my journey to the Orient. I cannot believe all my hopes and dreams have led me down this path, but it shall be my greatest accomplishment. </i></div>
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<i>Although I travel alone, the Duke of Albany and I decided to go our separate ways, I am most fortunate to have a delightful companion waiting for me when I arrive. <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2015/05/i-have-started-and-redrafted-this-post.html">The Scottish Marquessa from months before</a> has also made the plunge into an unknown territory. I've never been one to shy away from adventure, but I am most glad to know that I am not alone this time. There are even greater discrepancies between the East and West than there were between the Antipodes and my Shire. I fear the culture shock may be the most difficult undertaking for me. </i></div>
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<i>But at any rate, I have committed myself to discovering new lands and learning ways of thinking. I'm so excited I can barely find the words. </i></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15781870109307692293noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6085377583074387496.post-65987913979945058542015-07-17T22:36:00.000+01:002015-07-17T22:36:07.340+01:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<i>Where do I begin? The story of my life has come full circle at a rate of knots that I cannot comprehend; the words are impossible to find and I find myself at a loss for the first time. </i><br />
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<i>The summer at Brighthelmstone is as wonderful as I imagined ~ though it is rather different without the Duke of Albany at my side. I'm enjoying my prowess and igniting my fearless reputation instead of mincing and mewling around the male courtiers. It certainly makes a change from previous years, and though I cannot deny missing the attention, I am finding a great deal of satisfaction in my new role. </i><br />
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<i>I feel very fortunate to have the Irish Lady of Corcaigh grace me with her presence, and even the Scottish princess has hardly left my side. We are a force to be reckoned with and it frightens me to think that I am already a fortnight through my six week summer. </i><br />
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<i>And then I will be calling the Far East my home. So many things have changed in such a short space of time that I find it hard to believe the changes have only just begun! Travel speaks to my heart in a language that no one else understands, and though I long for adventure, I still wish I had someone to share it with. </i><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15781870109307692293noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6085377583074387496.post-58840702489401642872015-06-22T17:16:00.000+01:002015-06-22T17:16:28.825+01:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<i>So much has happened <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2015/06/if-tree-falls-forest-and-no-is-there.html">since I last found the time to write something of note</a>, that I do not quite know where to start. To think I am in the midst of my final week in Dearne Valley and it only<a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2015/04/weeks-can-go-by-and-monotony-of-life.html"> feels like yesterday that I was making the move this far North</a>. Where does the time go? </i><br />
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<i>I cannot pretend that it has been an easy fortnight, despite the glorious distractions I have encountered, but change tends to make everyone a little wary and apprehensive, even if I am the instigator of that change. Or is that <b>because</b> I am the instigator of all this change?</i><br />
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<i>Again, I am not going to write a confession to set the tongues wagging. <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2015/06/there-is-so-much-that-i-have-to-tell.html">Mistakes have been made and life goes on. </a></i><br />
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<i>Instead I am going to reminisce about the delightful weekend I had with my Lords and Ladies of the Shire on our coastal rendez vous last weekend. We feasted, pranced and indulged with a furore that the Viking gods would have been proud of. It made me realise how grateful I am to call them all my friends, and I shall miss each and every one of them while I sojourn in the Far East. </i><br />
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<i>We were graced with the presence of the Duke's sister, the brunette, Harlequin and many fair Ladies who each have a special place in my heart. We took part in many rural activities, though I cannot claim to have caught any fish (which I was most disappointed about!). It was a weekend to remember and I am still on a high when I think about the fun we had.</i><br />
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<i>With Dearne Valley coming to a close, Brighthelmstone is beckoning ever closer, and this time I am taking a more active role. I have more responsibilities than ever and I have already begun my preparation for the summer! It is something I am most looking forward to, not least because it shall give me the time to come to terms with all that has happened this past year. </i><br />
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<i>All this talk of what I have to do is making me more aware that I should do less talking and take more action. As always my summers are inundated with activity but that doesn't mean my writing isn't a priority ~ only it becomes ore ethereal as it seeps in and out of my consciousness. </i><br />
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<i>I shall always write and create stories even when my life is as hectic as it is now. </i><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15781870109307692293noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6085377583074387496.post-47383713767300695322015-06-08T21:07:00.003+01:002015-06-08T21:15:05.699+01:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<i><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #6a6a6a; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;">If a tree falls</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #545454; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;"> in a forest and </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #6a6a6a; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;">no</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #545454; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;"> one is </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #6a6a6a; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;">there</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #545454; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;">, does it still make a sound?</span></span></i><br />
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;"><i>I am as terrible as that sounds, but I am <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2015/06/there-is-so-much-that-i-have-to-tell.html">not yet brave enough to utter the words that could send me spiralling into an alcohol-fuelled frenzy</a>. It is better that I close that door an</i></span></span><i style="color: #545454; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;">d walk away from the damage I have caused without a glance behind me. </i></div>
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;"><i>It is not the first time I have made such a mistake, but <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2011/03/i-suppose-i-better-start-with-apology.html">far from being an entertaining entry</a>, this seems to have potential repercussions that I cannot soften with kind words and hollow promises. I may have even outdone myself this time. </i></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #545454; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white;"><i><span style="line-height: 18.2000007629395px;">So, instead of focusing on that misdemeanour I will rather reminisce about the weekend just passed and exclaim proudly my love for my Irish Lady of Corcaigh, the brunette and four minstrels who kept us suitably entertained all the while. </span></i></span></span></div>
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<a href="https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/236x/53/d8/db/53d8db0b5b3c7cd043d655fa8a961e5c.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/236x/53/d8/db/53d8db0b5b3c7cd043d655fa8a961e5c.jpg" width="142" /></a><span style="color: #545454; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18.2000007629395px;"><i>To think <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2014/06/the-end-of-era-is-nigh.html">a year has vanished since we last drank in each other's company is absurd</a>, but it felt like no time had passed as we joked about our time in the City of a Hundred Spires, watching intently the delicious quartet who serenaded our reunion. They were clearly a little too young for each of us (words I never thought I'd say), probably <a href="http://duchessoftheshire.blogspot.co.uk/2012/05/i-have-sojourned-south-for-weekend-to.html">no older than the enamoured young Captain from the Antipodes</a>. But they each exuded a confidence that was electrifying. It is not often I can find a man to transfix my gaze for an hour, let alone an entire evening, but those four did more than that...</i></span></span></div>
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