Monday, January 30, 2012

I've just crawled from the olive-skinned brunette's bed in the hope of some breakfast before lounging at the beach all day today.

I cannot understand where January has disappeared, it seems to be an inebriated blur of scandal and debauchery... If only I could say I felt somewhat guilty, but that would be a lie. In this world where life is short, I may as well make the most of every moment.

Boundaries have been set with the Captain and we are now just friends. If you read my previous post it sounds like I should be grateful for his friendship, or indeed the friendship of any man. But of course the one person who I would want more of a relationship with, wants nothing more to do with me. I think the Greek gods of Comedy may be watching over me and enjoying the irony of my situation.

Of course I don't help my situation by accompanying foreign dignitaries to a Ball at one of the only palaces in the whole of the Antipodes... If anyone remembers what I was like over a year ago... Let's just say somethings never change. The evening was wonderful and I do hope to spend more time with  the foreign dignitaries, two brothers in particular. Indeed a Ball was just what I needed after the rather more relaxed days I have been having with the brunette. I feel I judged her too harshly and I must remember that she too is in a foreign land away from home.

I have no idea what to say about the Captain. If the Greek gods are truly determining my life at the moment I could believe I was suffering from a mild case of hubris... Would that be deserved?

I wish I had Belle to comfort me, I miss her dreadfully and Armiger! Why do we have to be 12,000 leagues apart when it feels as if they are safely tucked away inside my heart?

Four more months is all I have left in the Antipodes... Who knows what may happen. Hindsight is a wonderful thing. If only I had the ability to go back in time and rectify some of my mistakes... I may not have ended up in this heartfelt anguish.


D. S.